Galaxies and whirling color above my head
The ceiling growing more empty
Womb like, a friend called it yesterday.

I've lost my voice just about
It is 2am, the wee hours
And I am awake with some kind of energy
Some kind of fear, worry
What a time of
Things so quickly changing
With zero notice.

Buzzing it all whisks and buzzes so fast
It whirls past me while I wade in the swamp
And I wonder where to turn to next.

I've always known I would once again
Go my own way
Noticing with quiet thunder
Noticing with quiet thunder
Those that clap and cheer ahead
And those that go quiet
Or maybe were quiet all along.

I'm not sure how to give anymore love than I give
Sometimes I feel so exhausted from the outpour
I've been thinking about
As a little girl
All the sketches, all the pretend
All of the moments to try and
Shine
Shine
Just watch me shine.

I've surrounded myself with people that seem to see me
I surround myself with knowing, feeling
Don't get too comfortable
You actually
Can't.

Sleep, sleep an activity that has never come easy to me
And has only gotten worse
With the pandemic
With wanting to do better
With moving forward
With feeling behind
With.

Its alright
Its alright
Its alright
I try to talk to myself with love
I remind myself I deserve love.