i am stuck in a world where the days repeat, as the calendar looks back at me in deceit. and even the sands of time look the same, when the hands on the clock constantly change.
it felt like just yesterday when it was january, when we made our hopes and wishes merrily. blissfully naive on what was to come; dreams, plans and lives having come undone.
alas, i am one of the fortunate ones, allowed to continue with life since it's begun. but in moments like this i feel really small, confronted by life within these four walls.
i try my best to fill the silence, while the world outside rings with sirens. the pressure to be productive calls out in this commotion, vacuum expanding till i'm near implosion.
and i feel guilty for feeling that way, for there are people fighting through their days. but i know their battles aren't mine to fight, and till then i will focus on mine, from within these four walls, until there is light.