A close friend once asked me out of nowhere so it seemed. "Are you happy?.
How do I answer that?
my brain freezes and my mind goes blank. Happy? Happy is something I haven't been in a long time
Maybe I lost it? left it somewhere and I just can't remember where?
school? my childhood home? maybe I just misplaced it
like someday I'll trip and find it like "******* YOU WERE HERE THE WHOLE TIME."
maybe I never will. Maybe I am stuck in this state of melancholy wondering what is happy?