I promise I don't want you

Because I know being with you is poisonous

I know being with you has always been temporary

You're good at leaving

Even better at pushing away

But every memory comes rushing back when I see your picture

And my chest still aches
When I reread messages

And even more when I read old poems about you

You were
Nine years

Nine long years of love and friendship and heartbreak

And most days I'm okay
But every once in a while
I wish I could erase you.