you say you love me more
& you know what?
you probably do.
because the second i started kissing her
is the second i stopped loving you.
i won’t try & justify what i’ve done in any type of way
but i also won’t fall to my knees & beg for you to stay
in a perfect world you’d be the perfect girl
but this isn’t a perfect world
therefore
you’re not the perfect girl
at least, not for me-
maybe the worst part is that you never will be.
i told you that i don’t know how to love & you said "let me teach you"
i told my friends that i hate being tied to someone & they said "she'd be good for you"
& now here we are.
i once watched my sister break her teeth on our porcelain sink because the only boy she ever loved drowned somewhere in the sea
i walked in on my mom & a broken mirror with blood spilling from her veins
she shattered like glass because my stepdad left & she can’t handle change
i have so many locked doors in my heart & in my head
i read & write & read & write & bleed & bleed until i’m dead
this path i’m on is dark & twisted
this place i'm going is filled with pain
i know that you love me enough to still choose to stay
but i don't love you at all-
you need to walk away.