Why do I have to think about you
Why does my mind do this to me
Why you
Even when I know its not good for me
Even when I know I shouldn’t
It's you
How can I do I choose the most emotionally unavailable person
When I myself am empty, drained
I give and give
Even when I know I shouldn’t
But I can’t help it
I try to stop myself
From getting hurt, damaged further
But it's like an automatic response
To show you love and care
Like I know you’ve never really had
And the ****** up thing?
You deserve it
So much
Even when you annoy me to no end
I only want to show you what you’ve never had
And give that to you
Despite the potential fear of how bad I will hurt,
The pain I will feel.
I want you to be mine.
But that?
Up to you.