Please. Could u find it in your heart To give me back all those vulnerable moments? Because I feel so stupid now I feel stupid for going against every fiber of my being and exposing myself For daring to say those things that come from a place so deep in my heart that it terrifies me. Knowing that when they rise to the surface When they escape the warmth of my chest and meet the warmth of the sun they become real They become present And tangible And I need you to give them back because I regret it now Because I dared to trust and you did exactly what I expected Because I spent my life building walls and was so well protected But I leapt I dared to love fully and relentlessly And I was all in so I put it in ink. I put it in air I put it in touch I cemented it in time and space. And I regret it. I don't regret the relentless love but I regret letting it see the surface I regret letting you see all those lisa Frank feelings. So colorful and magical and childlike And I'm embarrassed. Cause in the end you didnt deserve it But now it's yours And for the rest of your life you have the privilege of those memories that were birthed from a trust you betrayed You'll get to look back and see how much I loved you How hard I loved you And I'll always see how it was too much I'll always be mad that I went all in Yet it wasn't enough for you to go all in for me Staggering inequity Now how will I dare to trust again? How will I not temper the reckless abandon that makes it so exciting? Love Is easy, But taking that love. Those words. Those memories and giving it matter Depth Sound Touch Color That's a gift. It's the purest art. So please just give them back so I can protect it better next time. I think Next time I'll just keep love in my heart.