I feel like there’s too much on
my mind to write any of it down
everything seems to be speaking
everything wishes to be louder
all I can do is stare at my toes
my mind and body have been screaming
for months
at me
in general
it’s too much to write down
too much to let it out
I might explode
or just deflate
I feel like I’ve been treading water
for longer than I can
and my mouth and nose are finally, slowly
filling with water
trickling down my throat
filling my belly
as I sink
beneath the waves