i scrape out dirt that one canβt see with the naked eye from underneath my nails out of anxiousness desperation needing to feel the keratinized layers add femininity to me cleaning them out twice more nine times more seventeen times more i pull my hands away and stare at the chipped clear polish and savagely push back the cuticles
forgive me for i have forgotten what love feels like tastes like and looks like, so even if i were to stumble into her on the street after all this dies down i wouldnβt even recognize her nor have the slightest idea on how to keep her