mauerbauertraurigkeit- the inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like
i rest my head on your shoulder as the road carries our dreams to places we have never seen. your arms hold me close as your love cloaks my broken heart. we sat there in the night no one spoke so the silence filled the air even though nothing was said there were thoughts the floated in the air between us
but how can you love me without expecting love in return? knowing that i will just break your heart leaving myself alone. i guess i’m just halfway happy with my heart made of glass and my mind of stone. too fragile to touch and too hard to let in.
“she talks about him as if he puts the stars in the sky” you. the light making my world. as bright as the stars. but with all this light you can’t mend my shattered heart. but oh my love
i don’t know if i like you or love you want you or need you all i know is that i love the feeling i get when i’m near you.
but i guess now you’ve left. left with your light left with your stars left with your l o v e. and left me alone in the night. i can’t help but wonder if it was better to love you and lose you or never have loved you at all.