she tried. you have to at least say that. she attempted to find what made her happy, find was caused her smile. in the end, all she found were broken promises, heartbreak and pill bottles. maybe it was that they were expired, or maybe, just maybe, it was the fact that she took over twenty. maybe she thought of them, everyone who has wronged her. maybe she thought of her family. all we can do is wonder, who's idea was it? who told her to? was it the voices in her head? was it the people at school? or was it herself?