I have no idea why I come to this bar every night. But I just do. I just leave it feeling jet blue with the weight of the wanders of the world crushing down on my shoulders. And I leave with questions and grief for anyone I see there.
Of pity for the girl behind the counter who isn’t very pretty. She’s washed up on the wrong side of the great Mississippi. Now she’s working ****** shifts and pulling pints filled with misery for the bums of the city.
Of shame for the alcoholic with his alcohol frozen brain. Standing by the bar eying up his drink before he chooses where to take his aim. But it’s his own fault he got dragged into this whole addiction game.
Of humiliation for the boy in the couple corner alone with his head filled with that question he shouldn’t have asked her. At least he now knows his place for it finally been confirmed. And so it’s time for him to forget it by ******* up his bottle of Estonian liqueur.
Of frustration for the poor taxi driver who picks up drunks stumbling up to his car under the influence of the pale moonlight every single night. I ask him if he’s been busy even though I know he has been asked this by everyone he has picked up tonight. Despite this he answers me just to be polite.
Of eternal embarrassment for my own self when my face hits the pillow and I ask what I’m doing with life. Why I’ve went to that hellish bar another evening to get drunk off my face and spend all my of savings and come home alone to go to bed and cry again. Worst of all is I know tomorrow it will be a repeat, like the next day and all days after that.
I have no idea why I come to this bar every night. But I just do.