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Feb 22
I fed my needs again to
the growing pit in my stomach
Out of hope that he matched me
In the moment I matched him
So we drank smoked and I was taken
Aback by something I probably
Just projected onto him like
some kind of ****** up fantasy
i always hope will make me feel something
different
In no time it picked me up and pushed me
around harder than the fantasy told me it would
im fooled but don’t care to admit that. I will say that I’m a foolish girl
It comes around and I assumed it wouldn’t
How useless my mind at times when the world does as it pleases
And I sit here foolish
Smiling and drunk
hoping that he will be the one person in the entire world who finally gets me in some way beyond surface level.
I’ll always walk alone in the face of personality
but something tears at me from inside
It wants to be held
Or hold I’m not sure
And it’s so ******* strong
It wants to come out but these ******* people won’t understand me for dog ****
So it ***** itself back inside my body and it hurts.
It feels heavy and it takes too long.
you teach me about things I forgot I loved
But I gave too many kisses.
I was just excited
You do not understand me.
9:55 am
Written by
Elsie Plum  21/F/California
(21/F/California)   
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