I think of your smile I think of your jokes I think of your soft brown hair I think of your sparkling eyes I think of the way you wear your jacket I think of the time when you first came over to talk to me I think of the time we first sat beside each other I think of the time we shared boba I think of the time you brought me home I think of the time you kept trying to talk to me I think of the time you try to come near me I think of the time I've waited around for you after work I think of the time we messaged each other I think of the movie we watched together I think of the pizza we ate I think of the time we talked about sports I think of the time when I met your parents I think of the time you first held my hand I think of the time you picked me up when I fell I think of the way you laugh I think of the way you kissed me I think of us I think of what we could've been I think of you when I listen to music I think of you when I watch tv shows and movies I think of the hugs you'd give me at my front door I think of the way you looked at me when I left I think of our conversations I think of the trips we've planned I think of the time when we were vulnerable I think of the way you made my heart flutter I think of the way you made my blood rush I think of the way sparks flew when we touched I think of you when I'm about to leave the house I think of you when I look up at the stars I think of you when I play the piano I think of you when I exercise I think of you when I wake up I think of you when I cook pasta like how I did for you I think of you while putting on my make-up I think of you when I'm about to pray I think of you before I go to bed I think of you even if I don't want to I think I'm not over you.
wrote this back in february and it took me so long to post this because till now i see how raw these emotions were that i can't fix it and so i'll leave it as is. i don't know how to control my thoughts but i think of you all the time, even when I'm not trying to.