i’m not ur soul mate, but i’m jealous that someone else gets to smell u on their skin. i’m jealous that someone gets to laugh at ur jokes, & smile knowing that u mean it when u call them beautiful. i’ll never forget that time we sat in the taco bell parking lot for 4 hours laughing & talking. & u screamed at that spider in ur car, but i just picked it up & gently put it outside. u always were so sarcastically dramatic, u were so funny. i get upset, knowing that u never would have made me happy, because i do not know why, i just know that i never would have been fulfilled. u told me i broke u, i made u give up. u told me that i was ur soul mate, that i was the most precious & special girl you’d ever meet, u told me that u could spend ur life twirling my curls around ur fingers. u told me i was smart & that i could do anything with my life. i should have held on, because i had love. u loved me. but i pushed u away because i never would have loved u, & i am sorry. i’m sorry that i couldn’t give u the world u deserved. i want to smell u one last time, u always smelled so nice, u always used the cologne i liked the best. u adored me. i adored the way u made me feel, but not u.