my first reaction was to call out your name just before it hit me that you're long gone and there's no one who took your place away to deal with this hideous monster while i could lay in my black dress waiting for it all to be over so i looked into an abyss of his dark eyes
he held all my fears doubts and promises and this time of which we never talk aloud showed me all the things i've done one by one
until all i ever wished for was to reverse to that day when i was a naive little girl not knowing of the games i'll play when nothing was broken and love was a granted feeling not something that i'll try to hide away from wishing to start again