I've been toiling with the concept of temperance, and these are my thoughts today. Practicing the allowance of loosening my grasp, and exploring the wonderment of fear. Acceptance that everything is fluid and a mess of interpretation. Rhetorical verbiage cannot console me. Words are just an interpretation that is perceived individually. A philosophical debate in every meaning. Everyone is right, and everyone is wrong. Explore narratives. Explore experiences that differentiate us. Explore.
I'm juggling complex emotions while grappling with my needs for stability and freedom. The limitation of mimetic expression, and the fear of uncertainty and loss of control. The earth tries to explain this to us at a young age as seasons change. We have no control, and change is inevitable but beautiful if you see the positive. I'm overcome with fear and excitement for this world that I've only just discovered. Before it lay hidden behind distortion, expectation, and self-regulation. To experience and love is the only goal. We are no one, just beings of the same symbiotic consciousness experiencing ourselves through one another. I don't have control over this. I can try my best by the people I love, but by the end of the day, nothing will go my way.
Deconstruct nurture, and explore nature. Limitations through perceived expectations. We are performing instead of living. Constantly under fear of judgment for not acting well to the roles we have been given. We forget that we are siblings and reinforce this idea of fault when trauma and perception are the true separators between us. We don’t see one another anymore. We see status and expectation.
We need to step back and wipe away who we should be and discover who we are. Temporary beings born to love, inspire and share.