I AM GOING THROUGH THE STAGES OF GRIEF FOR THE LITTLE GIRL THAT I WAS AND WHEN I SEE HER IN MY CHEST I WANT TO HOLD HER TIGHT BUT I KNOW WHAT THAT HOLDING WOULD DO TO HER BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT HOLDING MEANS TO HER AND WHO SHE WOULD THINK OF AND I AM SORRY
i know how she would struggle and cry and say CAN WE NOT GO TONIGHT, PAPA? CAN WE SKIP TONIGHT AND JUST GO TOMORROW, PAPA? PLEASE? PLEASE? PLEASE?