it's beyond the need to feel pretty
or feeling fat and ugly
it's that feeling in my gut
that says no one will ever love me
because i just feel unlovable
i feel like i could be easily replaced
nothing too special about me to miss
they're probably tired of seeing my face
it's easier to just not care
so that's what they do
why put in effort
when i'll do it for you
and there's a few who try
but it's all cluster ******
they do it for themselves
so it's not really love
they're preying on my need
to feel understood
i'm scared of those people more
because they really think they are good

oh... i just feel unlovable
i hate how uncomfortable i am in my own skin
everytime i start to forget
the self-loathing monster creeps up again