You see I know this girl , I’ve known her for as long I can remember . Sometimes though for some reason ,Unknown to me, she makes appearance. For a while after she’s on my mind , constantly on my mind . It’s like she’s worked her way into every nerve every cell she’s there . I have to please her I’ve got to keep her happy. My mind is a machine , a machine with cogs and the cogs keep turning but when she’s around they’re on overdrive constantly worrying to point where I worry so much it makes me ill .
You see I know this girl , a girl called Mia.
I direct this at you. The one that clings to my sides, hangs off my clothes :Weighing me down Like a tonne of sugar in my gut Down . Down . I can’t stomach it any longer ! You stick to every ounce of my being, Creating a blinding hatred Spiralling Down . Down . Down . my appearance to the public eye now untrue to my reflection, I wont be added to your collection but the obsession to meet your expectations is impulsive . Addictive destructive
empty swallows, hollow sorrows . I crave it . I need it . you’ve infected every nerve . I’m weak . “hide yourself” , no one can see . don’t stop yet please stop I can’t stop nonstop drop .
I’m frail , one more blow from you And I’ll crumble . Nothing but a bag of bones covered in an Off white security blanket . You have thinned my hair , Made my nails brittle , And my throat swell . But still you’re attention Is what I crave the most I starve to please . To please you . I’m starving .
I have struggled with bulimia most of my life , these are my thoughts to you Mia .