I lay here alone and i recall those words you said, how you told me all you longed for was to lie in my bed, how you wished to feel my touch, as i stroke your stubble grown a little too much. How you'd call me late and declare you're cold, say the only possible cure was to be in my hold. I wonder if you still lay alone, in this new place not all that far from home, the thought so awful has now fled I hate myself for letting such ideas inside my head you are mine and I am yours, a trust neither should betray, though difficult without a word it is to keep evil thoughts at bay. But I shall fight until our wedding day.
My boyfriend has moved to university, not too far away. Though he struggles with his head and he does not let me see him.