I told someone
I wouldn't cry today
I lied, I had already started
Only she could not see
It was terrifying
I'm scared
In so much pain
I'm filled with sadness
I'm broken
I lost hope
My faith had vanished
There's no will left in me
If the devil had whispered into my ear
I would have listened
I had become the disappointment I envisioned for myself
It was terrifying
I'm scared
In so much pain
I'm filled with this darkness
Even the devil wouldn't get close to this broken vessel
I've lost all hope
There's no will left in me
I wouldn't cry today
I told someone.