How do you stop loving him when you told him that nothing would ever stop you from loving him? No matter how many times he broke me I built myself back up. I picked up each piece, saying sorry in between. I never stopped to wonder why he did not help me. I ask him: If you love me, why do you hurt me? He tells me he doesn't hurt me He tells me that he doesn't break me He tells me that the shards I am recollecting were placed by me. I was blinded. So careless of me to believe that I was the reason that I was shivering and shaking in bed, sobbing uncontrollably. You refuse to take the blame. Every time that I wept from your words, the problem was the tears streaming down my face not what caused them. I want nothing more than for him to feel the way I did. Just for a moment For a brief moment I want him to feel all of it. The feeling that everything are you is falling apart. My world, spiraling out of hand. How could you do this to me? Every night was sealed off with a "Goodnight I love you." The closure that kept me comfort. The promise that he would be here for me when the sun rose. The promise that no matter what he would be by my side. Reckless. Everything I did was reckless. How was I supposed to know that letting him back in would get me hurt over and over again? The warnings from all my friends. I'm not stupid. Deep down I am sure that I knew the consequences. No matter how many times I gave in it still felt worth it to me. I became weak just to have the security of him. He was my world. How easy it is to give in to the constant temptation. I'm sad. All the time. This numbness is becoming unbearable. Was it the same when I was with him? Why do i vaguely remember feeling better when I was with him? The constant ache in my heart, The empty feeling in my body. I want to get out, but he won't break me again.
hello everyone. i am fairly new to writing poetry and i am always up for constructive criticism. i hope you enjoy reading <3