People started looking up to me
I got overwhelmed of the feeling
It's exhausting sometimes, you'll get too tired maintaining.
I'm not perfect. I fail.
Just like any other human being.
I get anxious and depressed and it is truly frustrating.
When I make mistakes, people get surprised.
I don't understand?
Why?
Am I not allowed to cry?
People don't take me seriously
So I sit here patiently,
Wishing that people would treat me differently.
I was told not to worry,
But to always stay bubbly
And so I did.
I made people happy
But the process wasn't so lovely.
Time should be treated wisely
But here I am floating aimlessly.
In this world full of misery,
I became a mystery.
Am I happy? I try.
I make mistakes. I cry.
In my head I have to hide
These feelings should never survive.
I should bury it they said
And with all my might,
My pride went along and died.
I'm lost. Alone
Thinking, "where have I gone wrong?"
Was I too much?
Was I too kind?
Or did I let my emotions collide.
Ah, I didn't realize I slowly let my soul die.
At the back of my mind I asked myself again,
"Why?"
Why did you have to lie?
It's too late to realize that I was now already gone.