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Sep 2019
I tend to forget who I am when I love somebody
Saying I need you in order to be me
Asking myself who I was before I let you consume me

Draining all my energy just to fill your cup and make it whole
Losing myself just to keep you around
I like to pretend I don’t fear being alone

So I sit here and beg
Promise me it’s love and say you’ll never leave
Tell me that you care and that I’m the only one you need
If you promise I swear I’ll give you all of me

I know I’ve told you about all my past lovers
All they did was hurt me
But I’m hoping that you might be different
Maybe I can convince myself that you’re the one that I need

And when you leave it’ll hurt worse than anything before it
But I’ll still let start all over from the beginning
Picking myself up off the floor again
On the hunt for a new soul to gain control of my heart

I’ll spend all my time searching worrying when the world will change
When it’ll send me an angel
Someone to save me love me never hate me
Maybe if I loved myself the way I wanna be loved I’d stop searching for it in someone else
So this was originally a song I was working on about my struggle with codependency. I changed up the format a little bit and fixed some things so I could post it here.
Jo
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Jo  20/Non-binary/New Jersey
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