I tend to forget who I am when I love somebody Saying I need you in order to be me Asking myself who I was before I let you consume me
Draining all my energy just to fill your cup and make it whole Losing myself just to keep you around I like to pretend I don’t fear being alone
So I sit here and beg Promise me it’s love and say you’ll never leave Tell me that you care and that I’m the only one you need If you promise I swear I’ll give you all of me
I know I’ve told you about all my past lovers All they did was hurt me But I’m hoping that you might be different Maybe I can convince myself that you’re the one that I need
And when you leave it’ll hurt worse than anything before it But I’ll still let start all over from the beginning Picking myself up off the floor again On the hunt for a new soul to gain control of my heart
I’ll spend all my time searching worrying when the world will change When it’ll send me an angel Someone to save me love me never hate me Maybe if I loved myself the way I wanna be loved I’d stop searching for it in someone else
So this was originally a song I was working on about my struggle with codependency. I changed up the format a little bit and fixed some things so I could post it here.