I burn the midnight oil I burn the midnight oil Because its when the world is quiet And I can turn in hours Correspond.
I try to drink more water Kicking up dust, dirt Gumption I remember when that was a word An ex lover Who later would describe himself in my life As a beleaguered father But I never fully understood what that meant No, just now I kinda do.
My hair grows long again Lana del Rey came out with a new album Her work always seems to Fall right into The cracks and crevices of The woodwork.
And I often feel nostalgic for the past I can't repeat Like I'm some kind of pretty manic Southern machine.
I'm wondering how where Will I conjure up The next thing?
It all takes so much time.
And I remember riding in the car In my lime green Pink sunglasses Coral lips So perfectly curated I wanted to resemble Outshine even All the film girl fantasies Like maybe, just maybe If I looked like your perfect leading lady It woulda been me you chose.
It wasn't in the end though I don't think you could Ever quite figure it out.
But god knows I ******' tried.
I danced among the sea foam Wrote poems into the night sky Just hoping in time you would realize Through my poems Through my feet waltzing among egg shells Through my willingness to coach and share
That it coulda been me It was me It was me all this time.
A one sided fantasy is only so good.
I wonder how you are And imagine you moving on and forward I wonder if your life is simpler now Now that I've been banished away Now that you have banished yourself away.
It was only gonna last so long It was only gonna last so long You used to watch my stories I'd always notice when you did I just always wanted you to pay attention I just wanted you to look at me To care, to feel a real interest But you were turned away the whole way through And I still feel the sting of your half hearted caresses Your half hearted love Your half hearted.
You said we were like a movie And its only in that regard That I look back at it with cinematic eyes And know that was all That was it It was never going to be more Than me with me.