why does she get what i want? why is she always at the centre without even trying? she keeps quiet and smiles and everybody flocks to her. whereas, i i go out of my way, out of my comfort zone, give my all, for naught. at the end of they day, she is always the one. the one that everybody prefers.
i feel petty and worthless
and when envy rears it's **** head, i'm the one in the shadows. unnoticed and unloved.
what is it that she has that gets everybody to notice her that i don't have? i feel so **** when i feel jealous. She's a good person but...