do i want to even dream?
fall into that loop of
                               you standing there
                               me breathless again
                               admitting all my mistakes
                               admitting maybe you're irreplaceable
but i wake up every time
taking a deep breath
catching up to reality again
because its been a while since
                                           i've seen you
                                           heard from you
                                           even thought about you
you make it so easy to fall in love
you make it so easy for me to hate you
do i even want to dream?
fall into a lucid cycle of
                                     thinking i was good without you
                                     kissing you hard
                                     letting your hands fall where they shouldn't
                                     regretting and breaking glass
but focus
wake up again
the sun rises and i'm back
knowing i'm fully in love
with everything i hate about you