I am an empty body with no feelings, it feels like my emotions are beneath tons of sealings. I can't laugh, I can't cry, I just want to say good bye. I've been hurt, used and left alone, now writing this text while listening to a sad tone.
I have no purpose, no meaning. My Life feels like a nightmare which I am eternally dreaming. I can't wake up, cause I am not asleep. Everything feels so unreal but yet hurts so deep. I am locked in my room, I can't see the sun, cause my curtains are closed and so am I, just waiting for the day I die.
I have nobody around, cause everyone just leaves me at some point and I guess that's fine, as I am dropping a tear in my glass of wine. I want to go out and live my life, but I have no strength or any motivation. I rather sit here the entire day and question my creation.
I hate nobody, but that's me. As I am hating myself the nobody. I can't even think straight or logically anymore, as my heart feels so sore. I was trying to escape negativity, but it always caught up. I wasn't fast enough and at some point I've stopped moving. I've accepted my life, I know it will not change as I am finally giving up on this hope I held.