I had you first Heart soul and mind Grown up, not apart by time So alike, so unchanged Through different environments, in a different stage Now they have you, thoughts and body Weeding away our time though unsteady So many wishes, so many prayers to one not there, answered suddenly but incompletely Now I have you soul mind and body Your heart is away, on vacation these days
Now I again begin to pray, to beg one not there May I have you? Again the way you once were? All mine finally for once Uninjured, unbroken Loved and loving but mostly; loving me?
God please! You know me better than I know myself! For years and years of my feelings bottled on a shelf Resigning myself to a secret love ocassionally crashing from above, to break my heart all over again I never minded it then...
But to have you and have you ripped away Every night, every day I will never be ok The jar is unscrewed and feeling renewed courses through my chilled veins To remember your gentle callused hands To remember your words to me when secrets spilled and my tears would repeat I would give anything for you to stay Even a day or two of having you Completely having you, is worth more than lifetimes having the next best thing
Sweet lord you idiot I'm in love with you, and I have been for an incredibly long time.