I'm always left alone
In the night, and in the cold
Searching-- and searching
For nothing in particular
And I'm really hurting

I feel lost, even when--
Surrounded by others,
And close to my lover
Nothing ever feels right
Even when it's all in my sight

My mind is muddled--
This time without substance
To cause this hysteria
And I am befuddled
As to why I am this way