i love you enough
        to want to love myself too
I ****** all the love I can get
        out of myself
and I poured it into the depths
                 of your soul.
I decided that only loving you
                 would put my love
                         to good use
because I am woman of scars
              and traumatic memories
when I heard my
          heartbeat pound in my ears
slipping away from reality
          and when the pages of the
only heart-filled words
                    I can ever say
       were smeared with my
       blood.
reminding me that the only
                          love that I'd feel
was the love deep within me
              slipping away from
   my grasp
        only to fill your empty
spaces that I couldn't
                     do for myself.