i feel so ******* sick


i cant stop thinking about you

i want it to end,,,, i don't know how you feel
im too scared to ask

i hope you dont feel as disgusting as i do

but part of me wants this to be mutual,

this raw desire,
this anxiety,


im so ******* terrified

             of how attatched to you i became so quickly,
the thought of this being unrequited is devastating to me

but the thought of you feeling the same fear i do,

is even scarier.