when we first met, I hated you. hated that adoring, naive wonder in your eyes, hated how you stuck around like an annoying fly, amazed at everything; anything could light up that smile on your face. I hated you. until I didn't. until that stupid smile of yours, didn't annoy me anymore. the sound of your footsteps following mine, went from a hindrance to being a normality. and your loyalty, no matter what **** you had to put up from both them and me, you still held your head up high, that halo circling your head; you lifted my quickly falling soul from its descent, raised it, and made me whole again. I hated you, then took you for granted. Didn't realize, how much I relied on that smile, those footsteps, that consistent scribbling, until you were gone. I'm sorry. Please come back to me.