Calming down Waiting for the time Where I can fill my mind With anything else Keep to the present... Oh ****
The reminders Today was the day... Last time... Remember when you tried? Didn't you try to....this time last year? Isn't today...?
The answer is... Yes
It haunts me when I close my eyes The same old empty night Killing me inside Torturing me
Yet there they are Singing; "Happy Birthday!"
They're smiling While I'm pretending All my will is bending Threatening to break It's all fake; My laughter My smile My glowing in the eyes I do it for them So they won't take me away Because of my past
Oh, but they just sing They make a scene Like it never happened Just forget FORGET IT
But it would be nice If just a person and I A friend and I Would laugh Make today a good day A time to remember To cover my past Make today a blast
But that's just a dream Isn't it?
- Jay M May 7th, 2019
I did something I'm not proud of on my last birthday...