Be perfect. No mistakes. I'll keep you safe Don't worry, okay?
Words from the critic inside my head.
Study more, eat less, Look at you, you're such a mess Follow my rules And you'll be great Excellence will be your fate.
But wait..... Life is not perfect.
It has ups and downs, twists and turns Sometimes you're happy, sometimes you get burned
It's a wonderful, messy place.
My whole life I loved my status I loved being known as smart It delved deep into me and attached itself to my heart
I survived all of primary and secondary school On my imaginary pedestal.
But once you're in the bigger world, It's hard to excel To know you're the best So you strive for control In ways you know best Food and school Perfect each test. Rules rule your mind.
I dream of a day When I can just be me Not the best, a little more carefree Where I don't feel the need to prove my existence Where failure doesn't bury me in a hole 8 feet deep Where my expectations are more realistic.
Each day I'm getting closer. Each day I'm learning more. Some days I'm more forward, other days I'm back But as long as I stay on the right track My battered soul will be free from attack