Dear Eduardo,
As I am writing this, I’m in a random wave of sadness… so please bear with me here. I’ll try to keep this short, but I can’t guarantee. I know what I said, and I regret it, not because I didn’t mean it, I did mean it. Regret it cause if I wasn't afraid of love, If I wasn't so insecure If I wasn't easy to hurt then I wouldn't hurt you. I can’t tell if I’m cold or sad. I know a great guy like you wouldn’t like a guy like me. You’re smart , funny , goofy in a good way. I never thought I’d be the one to give it up but then I felt too much then didn’t feel enough and I said what I said. I know my heads been racing , I don’t do well with replacing. The thought of you with someone else made me wanna prove myself. Im sorry if im kinda mad , it maybe cause I really cared. I thought it wouldn’t hurt me bad , but maybe I was scared. Something about you makes me go insane and there’s something making that okay. I know I shouldn’t feel this way but maybe you feel the same? Not gonna lie I know that I messed it all up. Guess I’ve gotten sorta numb. Wish I could explain why my heart’s been acting dumb. But I can’t so yeah.