My mind is like a labyrinth that I can't seem to figure out. It will take years of wisdom, no doubt. But I wish I could speed up the process, help time fly by. I don't want to live my life like a lie. I want to love and be loved without being judged. I want to be accepted by everyone, I want to have fun. But how can I do that when you make me feel bad. The one who is supposed to love me regardless, just makes me sad.
What if I fall in love at an early age? Will you disown me and send me away? Will you accept it and support me? Will it make you happy because it makes me happy? I doubt the third option and the second as well. I feel like you'd make my life a living hell. I'd have to hide everything from you. And that's not what I want to do.
Why can't you accept me for who I am. Why do you have to make me feel so bad? I am happy, is that not enough? Do you have to crush my spirits and break my heart? Does it make you happy when I cry? Are you glad I am dying inside? Do you like that I'm afraid to love? Is this something you are proud of? I just want to be me, nothing more nothing less. Why can't you be satisfied with my best.
You said be true to you, but I guess that was a lie. Cause you judge me always and it crushes me inside. I guess I'll never be perfect or enough for you. I wont do everything that you want me to do. I'll take a chance and be me. And as for your reaction, we'll just have to see. I'm sure you'll forget me and leave me alone. You will lock me out of that place I called home. I will be by myself, I will have to make-do. I will have to live my life without you.
I will never be completely and truly happy. No, that's not possible when you've lost your family.