I’m always told that I’m never alone. I hate that statement because I feel like I am all the time. And where’s the proof that I’m not alone. I don’t really know what to think about any more and I know that You don’t even think of me anymore but here I am… still thinking of you. What we had, how much effort we put into each other. The amount of time that we spent together. How much time that we spent talking about what we were going to do when we got out of High school. How much love that we had for each other.  And I messed it all up. I don’t even care anymore about what you did. I feel worthless and like I’m never going to be able to know what it feels like to be happy. I hate not being able to do anything when I know if I was there, I would do anything to make you happy. I keep on having these dreams and they feel more and more real every time. And then I wake up feeling hopeless and feeling worthless. The dreams, I wish they weren’t just dreams, I wish they were real. I wish that happiness was real. The feelings, the emotions and the laughs and the love. I still think about You. I would ask you how you were doing and then you would say better now that I’m with you. And then you would ask me. And I would respond amazing, because. And I meant that with all my heart.  And now I just feel lonely and sad all the time and there’s nothing I can do to change that.  I don't regret much but I do regret hurting you.