I have committed a crime
I struggle to look at you in the eyes
My soul feels so different, empty and shattered
I let out sighs into the air, saying I once was a women with dignity and grace
I can no longer feel the same
If I must be replaced then so be it
I let things pass through me so easily
I had acknowledged this could’ve happened
I would understand if you were angry at me
Furious i’d Be if you did the same thing to me
Leave me in my misery or stay with me
All I see is blurry images more than ever and it’s not my bad sight
Fog consumes my thoughts
This will haunt me forever if I don’t tell u
What I’ve done is awful and unforgivable
I deserve the disappointment in your eyes
I let you down, failed you terribly
I could never forgive myself for that
Because of the moment, I lost my faithfulness towards you
Please tell me you don’t hate me
I wish I could tell myself the same thing
I walk through the streets with a burden that makes my knees weak
My heart has always been numb but it’s much more than that now
I can’t feel right, I obviously can’t think right either
You don’t deserve me
I don’t deserve your love and attention like I’ve always wished for
But if we start fresh like a new page
Would you still be here by my side?
Or would you leave me behind?
Because I need you
Like you need your cigarette,
When you want to relive some stress