At age 18 my love life;
seemingly perfect; was so long
a fiasco of desire and perfection.
I wanted a perfect being;
was there such a thing to be so perfect.
I was living a dream;
a dream without no reality.
Then a year passed;
I broke off from my first encounter.
He was a nightmare;
how can a match be so perfect;
do I really want a mirror;
or can I use an 8mm camera lens
showing me the opposite sides of me?
While my age turned 19;
I can see that a lot was taught
in my teens.
I seem to be in a war
that I could not have fought.
I wanted the decade to change for me!
There was nothing more for me to see!

So, the decade makes a turn;
I felt like in my twenties would be my year;
the year of Jubilee of eternal
warfare that could take away my fear.
However, I was wrong;
I took a wrong turn;
I met this other person;
left me on stage with this song;
drop dead gorgeous was to yearn;
for I knew looks have never won.
I took a break;
needed to focus on school;
never really understood God's sake;
therefore, leaving me a fool.
What a beautiful year;
I turn twenty-one;
I thought I had my beer;
and that battle was won.
I had to fear that no one understood me;
yet, my understanding was not true.
I was living a dream that I did not see;
and yet, this other person had no clue.

I sit on my bed writing goals;
I wanted to be in love in my twenties;
oh, how I missed that goal;
I am now in my thirties.
Time moves so fast;
yet, people tell me time heals;
I am twenty-five years of the vast;
and all my life endured was deals.
I would be twenty-seven;
wondering if I will ever find love.
Next thing you know;
I felt like I was in Heaven;
looking into the eyes of a beautiful dove;
a person whom my life bestow.
I was thirty when I met him;
my God, I thought I have sinned;
in fact, I began to take hymns;
and looking back to how I was pinned.
I will be honest;
I never wanted to love again;
I gave up and decided love was not for me.

I could not believe I would find love;
I even promise not to again;
not without the right key from a dove.
That was when I found the one, again.
I could never find the one,
because all the ones I found;
were not letting me in for the sun;
what shines when blind made no sound.
I was thirty-seven when I made a move;
the year of Jubilee;
my business was what my way soothes;
but in my life, I was set free.
After a long year of resistance;
he unlocks the door to my heart;
allowing me to love with perseverance;
allowing him and me to a new start.
It has taken me thirty-seven years;
to make a move in the right direction.
He was able to set me free from fears;
And I loved him more than any other son.
I new nature has put us together;
He needed me in his life to finish a search;
that same search is what made us forever,
and I believe that the arrow came from that archer.

I am a beautiful Gem;
You are the beautiful Sagittarius;
My pearls can shine brightly with him;
and his stones are set on serious.
Now, I take a break;
I want to disconnect;
He is definitely the part that I ache;
so, it is time to reconnect.
That magic box has a promise;
I never knew I would see,
but your heart is filled with gliss;
I almost missed the point given to me.
You needed to find a puzzle piece;
You provided me chances, again.
My fear was pushed aside for peace;
and I made my move to Michigan.
There my seven-year heartache
will be sealed with a promise;
a promise that should never break,
but will assure me much bliss.