I have these realizations sometimes And somehow I'm surprised Did you know I mistreated you In ways you never said?
You said I didn't take you seriously No, I didn't treat you like a person See, even though I was raised as a woman I was raised in a system that told me that Women are less than And I never believed it consciously But my best friend at the time Treated women like others And the system and my surroundings Wore off on me in ways I'm not proud of
I'm not making excuses anymore I take responsibility for my actions I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry That I never listened to you That I let him and myself Speak to you the ways we did
It surprised me that you talked to him again I can't help but wonder if you're friends now Before you left you were afraid of him I just hope you know your worth I hope you remember you matter Because you deserve to be respected
It took me some time and some space To realize my mistakes Actually it took having someone else Experience what you put up with And calling me out for it
But you were raised in the same system Brought up in these twisted gender roles I just hope you don't believe in it Cause life is a lot better When you don't feel invisible
I'm sorry B. I'm sorry I didn't realize sooner. The reason I'm not friends with him isn't the breakup, it's my realizing that he's problematic in ways that don't align with my values.