Do You know....the last time I was
excited to wake up was when you
were in my life.

The  last  time  I  felt  like  life  had  
wonder,or  exc­itement or  happiness  
to  it.....
--- was  when  you were  in  my life.

It's  like --- no  matter  the  weather
---   every  day  feels  like  winter.

And I keep waiting for summer to
comeback,  but  it  never  does.

Most  things feel out  of place these
days,  especially  me.

My  thoughts  were  destroying me.  
I tried  not  to think, but  the silence  
was a  killer too. I was murdered by
my own mind.

      But  I've  changed  irrevocably,
permanently.  My  soul  is   richer
and  my and my heart  is  fuller  in
brokenness than  it was without. I've
learned  true despair, and  it's made  
me  learn  to  appreciate   true  joy.

                                                     ­                            Jon York   2019