writhing in pain i remembered vividly what the doctor had said to me "you have manic depression but you are too young" and then she walked out
i was thirteen i didn't know what that meant
so i tossed in bed and ate my blanket but not the food they served me because if i ate food then i wouldn't be pretty like her
"you can't touch each other not even fingertips" i needed love from someone who knew my struggle they took that opportunity away (for another few months)
"your family is here to visit" i said i didn't want to
"you are in control of your stay here" you didn't even try to stop me from lying my way out you helped me lie
"you can't listen to what kept you alive" why not? but you can play songs that describe **** with the curse words bleeped out
"we'll give you the others information if they leave it for you" they did so why don't i have it
"you can't have any unsupervised utensils" then tell me why did you leave us a group of unstable and freshly medicated teenagers alone in a room with scissors and glue scared and confused
"you can talk about anything in group therapy" then why couldn't i speak when i was ready? was it that i wanted to tell them how ******* thankful i was to be somewhere that finally wanted to help with people like me
"we want to help you get better" the biggest lie you told "if the pill doesn't help, just tell us" you called me an addict "you can tell us anything" you made me feel nauseous "you're safe here" you made me undress after visible discomfort and tears so you could look and poke and ****
"you have manic depression" but we wont treat you for it
instead, we will treat you for depression with a touch of anxiety because we don't want you better we just want you away
I have manic depression Untreated for at least Four years. At this rate And my mental state(s) It could very well be Borderline Personality.
I have(had) manic depression And they took four years Away from me.
i was in the mental hospital for 6(?) or 8(?) days. it wasn't all bad, it just wasn't good. if any of you have bipolar or bpd and would be open to talking to me please message me. it's scary to realize this.