And of melodies & songs I find most comforting, soothing when a wave of sadness comes ashore, There’s a laugh and a cracked voice, there’s that & so much more I’ve come to adore. When the scratches ebbed into my arms weigh a ton, and the burden of living becomes so much that I want it to come undone. And then I cry at night, shed a tear or two, or laugh until I can’t anymore ‘cause my breath left me and my lips turned blue.
Only then there’s nothing anymore, no songs or melodies or laughs. Only the light at the end of the hall where I spent most evenings weeping & crying in haste.
As I lie with my earth-shattering problems all carved into the lines of my forehead and eyes, the ground finally engulfs me, there’s no more disguise. And then in melodies and songs I found so comforting, there was you. Singing your head off and sometimes humming, or in some cases throwing a shoe!