damaged
lost and struggling
like trying to keep my balance in a spinning room
“be grateful”
and i am
but why am i so unhappy?
no answer...
i try to be okay i promise i do
but its not there
the energy, the motivation, the hope...
nowhere to be found
life is stepping on me
and im struggling to pick myself up
i have so much love
and it hurts so much
im trying and its not working
i lay in bed for hours
my mind is yelling at me to get up
but im pinned down...my body wont move
my heart is stuck
my body feels empty...
living the same days over and over
no change
until one day i find myself holding back the tears
trying not to fall apart...
i told myself im okay
turned away from my sadness
but the tears were accumulating
a pool of tears...waiting
waiting for me to accept them
and feel
so they can be free..


let it rain
your eyes are the clouds
freed from my own mind
let your mind listen to your heart sometimes
let yourself feel
sadness is like quicksand
dont get stuck in it...
-h.u