It's easy to pretend like everything's okay. Smile and nod. Smile and nod. Repeat the process all day long, Until you're drowning in your tears, back in the safety of your room. Let the river of salt wash away your sins and sorrows. A smile creeps back when you're done, manual and mechanical. And you go on and on and on. Repeating the process all over again. Till you choke and suffocate in your own pool of tears. A strangled whisper escapes your lips, but is there anyone out there to hear you? "Its going to be alright", they said. Soothing lies. Bitter soothing lies. Will you ever be able to pull yourself out? Or will you let the fingers of your past strangle you?
I don't know guys. This was written in between a mental breakdown lol. I thought it was relatable. Anyway, if you're going through the same ****, I'm sorry for you and let me tell you this: It gets better, but it takes a lot of time. Stay patient and ignore the **** world. Work on yourself and become the best version of yourself. Learn to love and appreciate yourself. Nothing feels better than that. Much love xoxo