I stare at my blank notebook trying to put down the things my heart feels, only to realize I can't. This sadness,disappointment.. where and how do I begin?
My best moments were with you,always. How I wish we were there again. The flashbacks come and go like fireworks in the night. Ones when I was in your car looking up at the sky to look at birds. The one of us in the darkness of the night looking at the sea and stars...
To think I loved you for everything you were;for everything you are... I became you in those days. I absorbed you like the rays from the sun. I lost myself to you,to be everything you needed. I was your shadow. And like the shadow I stayed behind.
But seeing you slowly back away from me broke my heart to pieces. All the while I told myself I was okay, that I knew all along. That it was too good to be true. Frustrated I cursed at the wind and hoped that you somehow heard me. That you would feel what I feel. That you knew what true love looked like.
I see it clearly that you never deserved me. Never loved me. Never saw the real me. You will NEVER see the adoration I had for you. And how I would've gave you the world on a platter in exchange for your sincerest love and affection. And now you will not see nor hear from me again. Exactly like the way it was in the beginning.