Some kid I don't even know is my hero because he called me "he" when he doesn't even know me and everyone else scares me because they're constantly mocking all us ******* trannies, saying we shouldn't exist, because we're liars and delusional.
I can't stand people who says they're like me just because they don't conform, because they're not. Not conforming isn't the same as letting everyone see you and call you "it" and "******" and saying they hate people like you, and not being able to breathe because you've got too beaten up by yourself hiding something and wanting to die but only not doing it because you can't stand for a single person to talk about it with "she" on their minds.
I used to say I hated dresses and pink and all that girly **** when I was young not because I always did but because I couldn't stand anyone calling me the girly girl, and then I always played sports, I fought and wrestled and kicked off my shoes for soccer to show the guys I was tough, I was one of them, and when they said I was just like them I skipped and cried at home from happiness.
I don't believe in any god, or heaven or ****, but I pray with all my heart that I could have been born as someone else. Even though I hate to feel jealous, I usually do not, I wish so desperately that I could be any number of guys I see.
2257 dec 14 2018
sorry that all i have posted for a while is about being trans but wow it ******* ***** :))))