memories
still live on in my mind and
heart where they are now scared
thoughts fill my sad sad mind and i cannot get rid of them either
  he is still there, behind me every noise ,i jump out of fear cause of his lies
scared he will come back and hurt me the way he had hurt me before i left
he knows i am scared because of the way i am with him around girls
i was so young when he hurt me that it is now within thoughts
 to grab my knife when i hear a knock at the door or a creak
in the halls, i have lost my once sane mind to him
  mace and a pocket knife on my key chain
 so scared he will come back
 and hurt me everything
is so ingrained
   within
me